I haven't been practicing a lot of magick these last few months, and definitely not Goetia. I can tell you I've experimented with some rituals, got some results, but since I almost never do any evocation to physical appearance or anything like that and my rituals are almost always the simplest they can be, it won't be interesting for you to read. But this one was quite something.
I've been struggling with anxiety a little bit lately, and this is one of the reasons I was trying to avoid this kind of ritual, but lately I had a few unexpected expenses and I'll have some more expenses to deal with very soon, so this just couldn't wait any longer.
I had something to sell(and still have) that would pretty much solve most of these problems, so I tried a ritual from Damon Brand's Magickal Riches that had worked for me incredibly fast and brought me a great deal on another occasion, but this time it just didn't work. I'm quite sure it's because it required an emotional alchemy that I wasn't able to accomplish at the time of the ritual since I've been so anxious and worried. Then I tried another entity from the Lesser Key. I'm not sure what went wrong since the ritual went well, but I didn't get any results. Next I tried yet another goetic work, but I barely felt a presence, so I just waited for the results and nothing happened. At this point I knew I needed Astaroth's help, but I was even embarrassed to call on her and say 'hey, nothing else worked so I'm asking you for help'.
For this I decided to go with nothing but the seal, words, feelings, and will. I didn't even raised energy, I just meditated on her seal and in a minute or so I was felling ready to proceed. I called Astaroth and in the moment I said her name the room started to fill with energy, so I thanked her for her presence and for all the help she provided me and others with. Next I talked a little bit and made clear I was aware that I should have done this earlier. She gave me a feeling of comfort and empathy like I had on my first contact with her. It makes me feel glad I'm doing what I'm doing.
I was going to do a sale on my online store(I sell some digital products that I create) and I knew what results to expect, so I asked Astaroth for a sum of money that was twice what I expected to earn from it.
So I emailed my customers and set some ads, a day went by and nothing. Another day... not a single person had used the discount code I was giving away. On the third day I thought I had failed or offended Astaroth and would get no results at all again. Then one sale was made through one of the ads I set up, but the price was wrong and the guy ended up getting a price twice as high as I was offering. Turns out I was offering a nice discount, but when people got there they would see a much higher price and leave the shop thinking I was trying to trick them while I had actually made a mistake. I fixed it, sent an email to my customers apologizing for my mistake, and what happened next is: the sales started and went so fast that about four hours latter I had the sum I asked for. When it reached the exact amount I asked, it just stopped. I didn't ask for more because I felt like it would be too much of a stretch and it would devalue my products, but now I'm sure I could have asked for more.
Something I notice is that Astaroth, even though I usually ask for financial help, almost always teaches me something new about and/or expresses empathy. The way I get answers from her during the rituals is via strong emotional responses. I know most practitioners think this is bullshit, but that's how it works for me.
As for the offer I made in exchange, this post is part of it. I also light a cigarette dedicated to her and let it burn till the end every day for seven days. At first I thought it was a shitty offer to make, but since I smoke and actually enjoy smoking I thought maybe she'd like it too. Venus, pleasure, empathy...
Now I have a new product to release and an item I'm still selling. If I sell the item it will be more than enough to pay for the expenses I'm expecting. I'm not gonna ask Astaroth to help me with all of this since I don't want to bother her too much, maybe just with the new product since it's related to arts and she's a Venusian entity.
